7-Days of Healing: Day 1

Healer, we are finally here! 7-Days of Healing: Day 1 and even I struggled to make it here today!!!! So, if that was you too, welcome to normalcy as we are all humans simply trying to make it through to a fulfilling life.

I can imagine Day 1 may be a challenge because well, this is something new for most people. That includes me too btw. Even though this is a program I’ve created, I never know what will come up for me when I also complete the exercise. So during these next 7 days, I will be entirely transparent and insert my journal entry for they day right here. Let’s go!

7-Days of Healing: Release

Here I am, fully realizing I am neglecting my self-care and that’s why I am so tired. I’ve been on such a high off life I forgot that it still takes energy too. I need to let go of the constant idea of “being on” and learn to just be the best version of me as often as I can.

This is something I struggle with a lot because, it’s a fear of JUDGMENT. I think anyone can relate to that. But I need to RELEASE this fear because IT DOES NOT SERVE ME. I read a post the other day that said “I am an acquired taste” and I related to that post so much because I know I’m not for EVERYONE. However, I also know I am for SOMEONE and I am sharing a “Journey to Healing” at the same time that I am living that journey in real life, choosing to openly share it with the world because well, that’s real. We need a bit more real in this life and a lot less shame.

So I release FEAR OF JUDGMENT because it DOES NOT SERVE ME. I feel unchained and a bit intimidated but in a good way. This builds pressure in my chest because it feels like a trigger. Fear of judgment and the need to fit and conform are trauma and a trauma response. I feel the need to appease others so they can accept me. But this limits me from being my best self, and it causes my anxiety to build up as it waits for a release. I’ve learned ignoring this means I will explode in panic and further scar myself with wounds caused by trauma. Instead, I come back to my body and I catch my breath. I relax my shoulders and I breath slowly with intention. “I am safe and I am me” repeating to myself as I breath. I will recenter, recharge and stay aligned.

We got this healer!!!!

-Steph <3